The sermon at our church this past Sunday was a heavy, mixed bag full of technical, theological, and emotional. That's a good sermon right there! It was on Genesis 1. When it came time to talk about Adam and Eve, and the fall in particular, they showed the following video. I can't encourage you enough to take 6 minutes and 42 seconds out of your life to watch this amazingly gripping piece of artwork. I'm not sure I've ever heard the story of the Creation and the Fall done is such a moving way. (It does take a minute or two to fully load, FYI.)
When the clip was over, my heart was left with an incredible sadness and this weight that I've felt has been trying to consume me lately. All at once, it came flooding to my mind that I've been wrestling with everything that accompanies the Fall..... a lot. It seems that it's been a growing pain - feeling this weight of man's curse, the weight of women's curse (I even flat out admitted to Aaron last week amidst an (ahem) argument that my desire was to rule over him, darn it!), the weight of brokeness, and strife; the weight of lack of whole community (that the Trinity IS and models), the lack of joy, peace, contentment, love and wholeness. I hear that "if God is for us, what can be against us" .... and in all honesty, it has felt lately like A LOT is against us .... against me. There is a line in the video where the poet states, "...born to know, born to rule, born to control" .... this is the LIE Eve first believed. This is the LIE we are all still tempted to believe.
And the Enemy has his way of making all that is untrue ring louder in my heart and mind than what is true.
For as in Adam, all die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive. ~ 1 Corinthians 15:22
Following such a heavy message were songs of hope, of truth, and of the reminder that I do not bear this weight BECAUSE of what Jesus did for me. It is THIS truth that keeps me going on days when the weight seems too much to bear. It is the truth that the weight has already been lifted that makes my heart able to sing. I'm so thankful that this weight is not mine to bear. It is indeed too much.
So if you actually watched that video and you are feeling the heaviness that accompanies this world as I did after watching it (or just have been in general)..... do yourself a favor, sing a new song ... your soul is counted free!
"When Satan tempts me to despair,
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look, and see him there
Who made an end of all my sin.
Because a sinless Savior died,
My sinful soul is counted free;
For God, the Just, is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me"